Appreciating the gift of life

Last week a friend I went to varsity with lost her life to TB after a long struggle with the deadly monster, this made me realise that I should appreciate life even more. I might not have all the gold and silver right now but I should appreciate that I’m alive.

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 I’m very thankful to be around for the people who need me, I’m very thankful I still have chances to prove myself, chase my dreams and achieve all my goals. I’m thankful to be breathing and having the opportunity to live on and dream on.

“Don’t think of the things you didn’t get after praying, think about the countless blessings God gave you without asking” ...Mushinka Matongo

The above quote humbles me, it’s not everyday that I ask God to keep me alive but here I am alive and kicking. I’m humbled and very grateful to be alive.

My few steps into the future

It’s midnight, I’m lying awake in the ‘future’ that I grew up fantasizing about....deep in thought, building castles, demolishing and re-building them again, planning, wishing and hoping.

When I was a kid ‘the future’ meant life after finishing college, so yeah it’s been months into the future and everything looks so blurry so far but I’m not extremely worried yet because I have a roof over my head, food on the table and a degree that I worked very hard for.

So far I’m jobless in ‘the future’ and clueless about where I will end ....the Northern Cape, KZN or back home but I keep telling myself that it’s  too early to panic.

While I was busy scrolling down my Facebook sometime I came across a verse that reads, ‘We live by faith, not by sight’ and something in me calmed down...mind you there is no stronger faith than that of an unemployed person lol.

As I walk deeper into the future I pray for the energy to continue being able to put one one foot down before the other and not trip down.  While walking I’m busy listening to the song Try by Pink on repeat.

To my beloved readers

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Dear  Readers

It’s been forever since I last wrote something on this blog mainly because of being uninspired and yes lack of free internet (one of the few things I miss about being a student). 

Since the year began the only thing that I’ve ever been thinking of  is how badly I planned for this year. I won’t get into detail because I will end up sulking and drain the little energy that I have to last me for the rest of this year but instead I will continue looking at the brighter side of everything, I mean everything.

So far the best thing about my life is that I don’t have a single ounce of regret about any of the choices that I made in the past four or so years. When I look back I can’t help but be proud of the woman that I’ve become and the goals that I achieved.

Right now I’m not far from being alone and I have nothing next to my name, the only thing that I have is my faith. I wake up every morning not really worried about my sorta miserable life but too curious about what my tomorrow holds, where I will end up, who I will end up with and so on.

Each day I drown my fears in the fact that I serve a wonderful God  and with Him everything is possible, no matter what, the odds will be defied and at the same time I’m young and ambitious nothing will ever put me down.

There’s so much I can say but I can’t say it now, I will say everything when I’m back on the ropes again to show how strong I’ve become. I’m so thankful for the people who are there for me right now, they won’t be forgotten when I get back in the game.

I promise to keep my blog up-to-date and not waste space on the internet with an un-updated blog.

Enjoy reading as I keep the faith

Me

The last lecture

So today, after four long years I had my last lecture at Cape Peninsula University of Technology. This was long and awaited. Sadly we were busy writing a test so I never got to give some faces a last glance.

Drinks to the last lecture this year....

It occurred to me that the familiar faces that I've been seeing for the last eleven months, I might never see again. I always thought the last lecture was going to be sad and emotional but it was just a moment of relief because I realised I won't have to wake up everyday feeling guilty of assignments failing to come together.

This might have been my last lecture at CPUT but definitely not my last in life. When we were introducing ourselves at the beginning of the year I remember someone saying they won't stop studying in life, that left a huge challenge for me. From then on I told myself that I won't stop studying either. I see a lot more lecturers ahead of me as I pursue my calling which I'm yet to discover.

If presented with the opportunity to get a message to a large group of people, what would your message be?

Given a chance to give a group of people a small motivational speech, being a person of very few words that I am, the following are the things I would include in my speech:
I would encourage them to never give up for quitters never get very far in this life.
I'd encourage them to ambitious
To work like there is no tomorrow and sweat blood if there is need
To give it their best shot in everything they do
To take things one step a time
To chase their dreams and never let go
To hold on no matter how hard it gets
To know that if it's not hard then they aimed very low
To never let empty words break them
I'd teach them to be independent
I'd teach them to walk an extra mile for themselves for no-one will do it for them
I'd teach them that it's all in their hands no one owes them a dime


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How old would you be if you didn't know how old you are?

In the past three months I felt 16 once again,  did not give a single care about the world and enjoyed every minute of the day.

I lived in the moment, laughed about the littlest things in life and for once felt young. I've always taken life too seriously for a young girl my age but then decided to cut myself some slack and loosen up a bit. I told myself life is too short to be taken seriously, no one gets out of it alive anyways.


But here I am today taking responsibility for everything I do again, life should be lived fully and responsibly. If I could guess how old I am today I think I would be a bit over 16, living in every single moment and breaking only a few rules as I go.

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Of all the forms of courage the ability to laugh is the most important

The ability to laugh in the midst of all adversity is the most courageous and important thing to do. Sometimes no matter how hard situations are laughing from the pit of your stomach, laughing until it hurts is the only reasonable thing you can do.


I remember seeing a quote somewhere that said 'if you are sad laugh and trick your brain into thinking that you are happy'. So yeah when it's all hard you just have laugh until real things that need to be laughed about get to you. There is no use in sitting in a corner and sulking when things are not going your way, find things that will make you happy...life should go on.

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